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If you came across this and you get offended by what I’ve written here, you can’t hold that against me because (1) starting Oct 10 I’ve changed/omitted names and (2) this blog is 100% unpublicized. I’ve done nothing to advertise or invite people to read about me talk about things that happen to put people in a bad light (but like Taylor Swift says, you shouldn’t do bad things) because (3) this is literally a diary, only it’s online because my law-student hands are always too tired to write things down, and so I’m figuring out my life like this. Okay? Okay.
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is where I say everything and nothing.
I'm not that girl who writes about everything and everyone, names included, anymore.
However, I'm still that girl who needs to write about everything to figure things out.
I've become the girl who knows that happiness is a choice, and the only things worth holding on to are the ones
that teach us things, and make us feel glad we are alive.
I've liked pastel colors, rainy days at the beach, free stuff, polite strangers, for more than seven years.
I'm trying to learn habitually waking up early. I haven't bought clothes from stores in about a year or more.
I still dislike mood swings, but thankfully I'm trying to get over people who don't know things I think everybody
should know.
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scrounge
posted on 2022-07-14 10:57 a.m. by Vanessa
I just wanted to talk about yesterday’s Homily by Fr Aik Muang, SJ. It was about pride and humility. An empty cup has room for tea. A cup that is full can no longer take it.
I have to admit that I don’t know everything, since I am not the main character of my life… only then will I be able to receive whatever lesson this whole thing is supposed to teach me. Yesterday I was blown away when I realised that I am in something I wasn’t exactly praying for, but definitely prayed about: Poverty.
Over Lent I listened to this priest talk about how poverty teaches us many things. And for so long I always told myself okay, I’ll spend less. But I never did. I always went overbudget: case in point, what happened in June. I said yes to literally everything, made a lot of good memories, but I’m literally living pay check to pay check now, and I’ve still got a long way to go. I’ll get more money in September 13. Two months away. Right now I literally am unable to save because I’m finally feeling the effects of borrowing money from my own savings.
No more iced coffee or after-work treats for now. It’s fine. I just have no extra money, but I can still pay for everything. Today’s lunch cost me 40 bucks: bananas, eggs, and coffee. Tomorrow I’ll have something more filling. Everything is okay. Come August 1st I’ll get 3,500 in electronic gift certificates so I can buy food. So basically I’m only scrounging for 2 weeks. It’s fine. It’s fine.
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