If you came across this and you get offended by what I’ve written here, you can’t hold that against me because (1) starting Oct 10 I’ve changed/omitted names and (2) this blog is 100% unpublicized. I’ve done nothing to advertise or invite people to read about me talk about things that happen to put people in a bad light (but like Taylor Swift says, you shouldn’t do bad things) because (3) this is literally a diary, only it’s online because my law-student hands are always too tired to write things down, and so I’m figuring out my life like this. Okay? Okay.
Good Friday 2024
posted on 2024-03-29 9:58 p.m. by Vanessa
What are you doing with your life anyway? You’re taking care of your dad. And the little precious time you have, you choose to spend it emotionally draining yourself everyday with Bubba. Because it honestly makes you forget about problems with dadi? Right?
Why don’t we try to do other things?
Being a caregiver is isolating enough. And now we have being in this shameful, consuming situationship with Bubba. What are you doing to yourself? The suffering that comes with caring and worrying about dadi is worthwhile. You know, that at the end of this, you will be happy you did something. But Bubba? You’re dancing with the devil. Toxic relationships, this hedonistic lifestyle… all bad for you.

But. Having Bubba makes me feel less alone :( and it really looks like he’s trying. But you’re happy when he’s gone. Your future self will thank you for this. But what if I never meet someone? I don’t know. Why did you let go of Lance? And the nice guys in Manila?

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