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Recollection
2012-02-18 10:19 a.m.
I’m not ready for my recollection this Monday. I have to be absolutely honest with the letters and all, and they’re going tell me how horrible of a person I am, and I don’t have a choice but to accept all the shit they tell about me and not tell them how to change themselves because they’d get all defensive. Sheesh. I know I’m not the best person ever. It’s a struggle that goes on every day. But what I’m proud of is that I work on it, I acknowledge it. I am over saying, “You don’t know how it’s like to be me” just because it’s true. Nobody knows what it’s like to be each other. We all have problems, but it’s how you deal with them.
I hate the friends I have. Two of them, actually. They’re just a bunch of boy-crazy girls who don’t give a fuck about school. It’s so stupid! One of them couldn’t study because she’s busy chasing after a guy who’s going abroad and never coming back, and the other one talks nothing about her stupid boyfriend who she has to wake up every morning to go to school. Why do I have to live with this crap? Ugh!
The other one keeps saying, “I don’t feel like studying today.” and I just tell her, “You never feel like doing anything anymore.” I’ve already told her to stop pining over her boyfriend, but no. The latter girl keeps supporting her, and they practically feed off each other. It’s revolting.
Last Monday I asked the two of them if we could do our project, and they were all, let’s do this tomorrow. It was due Wednesday, so that Tuesday I reminded them about it. She told me, I can’t. I have a date. I got quite pissed and burst at them, saying “yesterday I said we should do it, but you wanted to go home and told me we could do it today. And now you tell me you have to go to your boyfriends? Get it together.” She was so pissed, she wouldn’t talk to me. And the former started calling her boyfriend, telling him that she can’t leave yet because she has to do some project. Oh, yeah. I’m the bad guy now.
It’s so pathetic, how they pretty much center their lives with their boyfriends. Sheesh. And people wonder why I don’t hang out with them.
They’re just terrible influences. During exams they would tell me that they don’t really aim for good grades, that they just want to pass and shit. Well the other one doesn’t even pass! No shit. I have my future all planned out and thank You, Lord if you plan to have me fall in love soon, I cannot wait for that to happen! But in the great scheme of things, I know what I want, and I know who I don’t want to be, thank you very much.
The friends I hang out with the most may seem off on the outside, but they’re far better off than those two.
When they look back on this, sure, they fell in love and there’s nothing like being in love, but there’s more to life than being in love. I bet in the future they’re going to pay for this big time.
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